I can’t imagine what it’s like…

…to walk down the street and be judged by the color of my skin.
…to be told, “I’m gonna tell the cops there’s a white woman threatening my life” and to have that mean something.
…to have three men kneeling on me for 8 minutes and 46 seconds.
…to grow up in a broken home in a broken neighborhood that’s part of a broken system.

I can’t imagine what it’s like…

…to put on a police uniform every.single.day and to face the hatred, hurt and anger head on.
…to risk my life to serve and protect.
…to know that my home, my family, my life are targets of violence because of my occupation.
…to see what they see day in and day out and to still show up.

I can’t imagine what it’s like…

…to be a small struggling business owner – in the midst of COVID-19 – having to sweep up the pieces of my shattered shop.
…to be dragged into the street and beaten for trying to protect what I’ve worked my whole life to build.
…to be the leaders of this country trying to navigate and manage the extreme heaviness that we ALL feel right now.

No, I can’t imagine what any of this is like.

But I can try to.

I can listen. And I can learn…from BOTH sides.

I can open my eyes, and my heart, to be more consciously, compassionately and knowledgeably aware of the deep-rooted pain and hardships, even if I can’t relate.

I can examine my beliefs, explore my fearful, angry emotions, challenge my perceptions and expand my understanding.

I can do better and try harder.

I can start with me.

So, that’s where I’ll be focusing my energy.

Because THIS — what we’re seeing, feeling & experiencing now — can’t be stitched up and mended with more hatred, violence & closed-mindedness.

The change will come when we can ALL get off our knees and put down our fists. When we can decide to stop fighting, hating, killing and destroying one another. When we can meet in the middle with respect, openness, curiosity, kindness and connection.

When we can choose the side of love, over and over again.

And I hope that we can choose that soon, because…

I can’t imagine what will happen if we don’t. 

Wherever you are right now, I hope that you are safe and well.

Sending all my love,

xo

Vicki